Ohhhhhh mannnnn life is GREAT!!! So I just started College last week and am SUPER positive about this year! Ever since I moved into YMO their tutors have been super helpful and my GPA has been sky-rocketing! Woo hoo!!! This New Year will be a lot different for me- as I have plans to be more independent. Let's talk about the type of Independence I mean:
Independence for me is creating your own success story. Your OWN. I don't wanna be one of those boring people who just live by the rules in order to get what they want outta life. I want to get what I want, do it MY way, and CREATE the rules! Afterall, this is my blog, my story, and especially my life. I want to make a huge difference in the world. Many people have considered it, many people have thought about it, some have tried it but only few have been successful at that. They have given up their dreams, sad to say, because they lost confidence in themselves or have been told by too many people to reconsider or try something else. I am not like that. I WILL be a highly influential person, like I try to be now. I earned my popularity by walking into an organization full of people I did not know and I started introducing myself to everyone and before I knew it, Everyone knew me. I like that. It's like, wherever I go now, I will never have a hard time making friends or networking. I love people. :) BUT there's a secret that is involved in my Emancipation, which I will speak of later.
One of the major changes to my life that will be happening soon is my EMANCIPATION. I'm not talking about emancipating from parental units, because I've lived away from them since I was 11 and I've lived on my own as an adult for 4 years now. I mean Emancipation from my identical twin sister. It's AMAZING being a twin. Super fun, super tricky sometimes, it has its own ups and downs. I always enjoyed dressing like her, doing acting and modeling with her and being one of "The Twinz." Its so much fun spending time with my twin- she's literally my best friend. I imagine we had a strong bond even before this life and it will continue even after this life. But I often forget that I am an individual and have been given different talents and capabilities than her. I must put those to good use and not bury them.
Soooooooooooooooo this Fall, I am going to University of Utah to study Human Psychology and Communications. I will be there for 1 year, apart from my twin. I am challenging myself to take on new skills and to learn how to be a real Independent person. I don't know too many other twins and what they have to go through, but I imagine its really hard for them to separate. I get worried about my twin all the time whenever she's gone for too long or doesn't call me, etc. She gets worried about me also, because we haven't learned how to be separated for long periods of time yet. I need to learn how to be an individual and to do things on my own, and for myself. If it was meant that we should always be considered a "unit" then we would have been conjoined twins.
I feel that this may open up many new doors for the both of us. Karri
is going into modeling. I am going into acting, namely for broadcasting. This may work to our benefit. Maybe in the future we can help each other out or switch roles, etc.
Here's the Secret- Since many people do not read my Blogg, it is fair that those who DO will get to know my ultimate Secret as I move. When I go to Utah, and live a whole new life, in a whole new place, with new people and unfamiliar surroundings, I am NOT going to tell anyone there that I have a twin. Nope! Not at all. I will develop interpersonal relationships with people and I will network and make many new friends WITHOUT having to re-introduce myself. I will tell people very little about where I come from, what I do, or my past. I will be very selective about what I tell others, just so I can come back to California and say "I did it. I became an individual and I will have no problem being one again" in the event that one of us gets married, moves away, we separate again, etc. This will be hard I imagine, and I know that there will be many days and times that I struggle to share how I feel with others, but it will be a learning experience and I know that I will feel more comfortable being around people on my own. WISH ME LUCCCKKKK!!!!
WHAT DO YOU THINK??
If there are any other twins out there who had to make a major life change to get used to being separated from their twin, I want to know how they did it and what were some of the struggles and successes they had. =D
